While preparing for Creative Camp, I felt restless, overwhelmed, and unsure of what to expect. I started to grow anxious, not because I did not trust the Lord, but because of my own weakness. Ever since I began serving in the LIT program, I carried a lingering thought that I was not creative, not skilled, and not talented enough for the mission entrusted to me. Subconsciously, I struggled to believe that I was worthy of this calling.
In Creative Camp, God showed me that He is truly a God of order and discipline. He reminded me that my doubts and scattered thoughts, when left on their own, will only lead to restlessness. But with Him, everything finds its place. I realized that creativity is about aligning myself with His order and trusting that He placed me here for a reason.
In my life, I sometimes lean too much on work. But without prayer, I easily get drained. Through Creative Camp, God reminded me that prayer and work must always go hand in hand. Prayer roots me in Him, reminding me of who I am in Christ. Work is where I let that identity flow into action. Both are necessary for me to live out my calling and to be a true witness.
God also shifted my perspective, to be a creative missionary is to first know who I am in Christ and to live that identity authentically. Even when I feel like I have nothing “special” to offer, the truth is that I have Christ in me and that is more than enough.
It is not my weakness that defines me, but His strength that sustains me. I am not here because I am the most capable; I am here because He called me. And if He called me, then He will surely provide the grace I need. God calls, and He equips.
I hold onto the truth that we are all creative missionaries. Not because of our talents alone, but because we bring Christ wherever we are. And it is all for His glory, the God of order, the God who teaches discipline, and the God who calls us to live out ora et labora.
