Commitment is a word that not everybody is comfortable talking about. Maybe because it entails bringing out one’s true self, making someone dig up the deepest thoughts that no one else knows. Yet, the irony of it is that the more complex it is, the more it calls each person to do it. From the simplest tasks, like doing laundry every Saturday or sleeping early as 9 PM, to the toughest decisions about discerning for a vocation. Each of them calls for a commitment.
We live in a culture where people leave when they no longer are happy with what they are doing or with where they are. It is having that mentality “When it’s difficult already, let go.” Maybe that’s the reason why a lot of people live in a “Throwaway” Culture. It’s very easy to just dump everything that makes life harder, not realizing that maybe the call is to endure and see the glory that awaits.
As a missionary for the MFC Youth, it was always instilled in our hearts and minds the call to give our total dedication to the mission. But a lot of times, it’s never a one-line easy task. Saying “yes” to the call when you’re in the Spirit-filled moment – when inspired during a recollection or when on fire in the middle of worship – is easy but the real deal is when you are asked to keep doing what you’re supposed to do even at the point of sacrificing something precious to you.
Going to different meetings, meeting young people for households, fellowships, doing one-to-ones, preparing for community events, all of these made me very excited the first time I will be doing it. But it also came to a point when it’s done routinely that I realized my time, comfort, and personal desires were needed to be set aside. I felt tired, I felt that the commitment I made is eating up my time to do the things that I want, to the point that I question and reason out: “Why am I doing this?”, “Why can’t I just be like the other people whom I know who goes off of work then straight to their houses?” “I have a lot of things that I need to do too than attending these meetings.” “Why am I limited in posting things on social media?”, and a lot more. But then, just as how I want to give up and let go of this service already, is just as how God pursued my heart even more.
Maybe that’s the very reason why we, as missionaries, are called to be set apart from the world, about how it works and what it offers. It’s very tempting to give it all up during times of pain, tiredness, and doubt, but then again, these are also the very moments where commitment speaks the loudest. How committed are you in continuing the mission entrusted to you? From the very words of Pope Francis, “I ask you, instead, to be revolutionaries, I ask you to swim against the tide; yes, I am asking you to rebel against the culture that sees everything as temporary and that ultimately believes you are incapable of responsibility.” It is fighting a battle more than once in order to win. It is more than a word. It is an action that keeps on trying even if the failure persists. To never falter to keep on going despite trial. It is the call to continue in and out of season and having once eyes fixed on the Lord.
Alyssa De Ocampo is a Mission Volunteer for MFC Youth serving the area of NCR North