One day, I was using my laptop, finishing schoolwork. It was late in the evening and I was almost done with the task that I was doing. Suddenly, a power interruption occurred and it caused a brownout in our Subdivision. It was dark, cold and I couldn’t do anything about it because there was no wifi. At that time, I was so pissed and disappointed with what was happening because I can’t control the situation. I kept on telling “Meralco, bakit ngayon pa? Bakit sa kalagitnaan ng gabi mo pa naisipan magpatay ng kuryente?” While waiting for the lights to come back, I realized that I had my phone and it was fully charged. Eventually, I used it as a guide whenever I was going to the kitchen or sala, etc. After some time, the electricity went back, then I immediately opened my laptop. The file I was working on was not saved. I was annoyed at that time but I told myself “Praise the Lord! At least makakagawa ako and makakapagsimula muli. Paano ko ba sisimulan muli?”
Having that experience made me realize that in our lives, we all have this brownout experience when we feel that we are in our darkest times; when we feel we are so distant to our friends, families, to ourselves, and most especially, to God; when feel that our prayers are not heard, our efforts are not valued, the things that we cannot control continuously destroy and crash us. We will have a moment like this and ask, “Meralco, bakit ngayon pa? Bakit sa kalagitnaan ng gabi mo pa naisipan magpatay ng kuryente?” It is like we’re saying “Lord bakit ngayon pa? Bakit sa kalagitnaan ng finals ko pa dapat magkaproblema? Bakit saktong birthday ko pa dapat ma-experience ‘to? Bakit sa lockdown mo pa tiniming na magkaproblema kaming pamilya?” Have you ever wondered that when we are in our darkest moments, we keep on asking “Lord Why?” We keep on saying it because we are covered in darkness and forget to see His light. We forget that God is in control. We forget to ask God “How do I overcome this?”
When brownout occurs remember that the lights will go back. Same in our lives, remember that dark moments are just temporary but God’s light is permanent. Like what I said when the electricity comes back, Praise the Lord, at least makakagawa ako and makakapagsimula muli. Paano ko ba sisimulan muli?” It is never late to start again. For lights are the symbol of chances. That is why Light is permanent because God’s chances are infinite. When we experience brownouts in our lives, stop asking “Lord, why do I need to start over again?” Instead ask Him “Lord, how do I start over again?” Asking God “how” is also telling Him “Lord, I will start over again but this time I entrust everything to You. Be my guide and my light in my darkest moments.”
Jesus said to him, “I am the way and the truth” – John 14:6a
Ron Boquiren is a Mission Volunteer of MFC Youth serving in the area of NCR East.