God, You have seen all my wounds and weaknesses, why do You choose me still? You have heard all my excuses and avoidings, why do You call me still? You have all the reasons to give up on me, why do You stay still?
These questions I have been asking God. These things I keep on pondering as I converse with Him in my prayers. Then the Father met me above the waves of His mercy and it struck me when God simply answered me with “Ang minamahal Ko ay Ikaw.”
God, You knew who I became in my darkest days, still You call me beautiful. You could’ve just abandoned me, but You hold my hand anway. You could’ve just let me go, but You love me anyway.
In awe of God’s voice, I now appreciate becoming who I really am before Jesus. I have my flaws, I have my weaknesses. I am wounded, I get hurt. I find it difficult to do lots of things not in my expertise. I keep running a race so I can keep up. I worry about the future. I fear what lies ahead. I struggle when God’s answer to my prayer is “no” or “not yet”.
In all these, I see the Father’s face smiling still because all along, He wanted me to just be me. God met me where I am, not where I pretend to be. No matter where I’ve been and where I go, God remains God in my life. No matter what season it may be, God’s love stayed the same.
“The feeling remains that God is on the journey too.” (St. Therese of Avila)
Jesus was there through it all. It is not me being a strong human, but God’s mercy in my life that He chose to love me still and love me more. So now, I hope more. I trust more. I pray more. I will go more. I love more.
Ate Riva Dimailig is a Mission Volunteer of MFC Youth serving in the Luzon Missions Team.
