Many would know me as an impulsive kind of person. It seems like procrastination has been my life-time partner that keeps me accompanied in every task that I need to do. And with every accompaniment of procrastination, I would really hate myself for overthinking things instead of doing it immediately, for believing that I could do it at the last minute and desperately planning things to be done in the most perfect way, thus wasting all the time left for me to act. (Who’s with me? Share this post if you can relate with me.)
And I have been pondering all the wasted opportunities and time just because I doubted what I can accomplish. What a waste, Chels! I felt as if God gave me a cake to eat and just because I thought I do not deserve it, that I am not able to eat that cake or I want to eat it in the most perfect time, the cake spoiled. What a waste of grace. That cake may have given me joy, and I could also share that joy to other people; but because of procrastination, the blessing has not served its purpose.
Now, why delay? Get up and have yourself baptized
and your sins washed away, calling upon his name.
Suddenly, I came across this Bible reading and it really opened my eyes realizing that for so many times, I have wasted God-given blessings. I realized that not all the time, I am given a chance to speak up, to listen, to be silent, to go on missions, to be entrusted with souls to take care of, to be inspired by strangers, to create, to write, and to seize this life that I have borrowed from Him. So each day, I have been telling myself, if not now, when? Why hesitate if you are going to do it anyway? If not now, when? When are you going to give your all for the call? When are you going into the deep to love and to serve? When are you going to offer and surrender your heart to Him? If not now, when?
With all these tribulations, I have encountered a prayer that helped me every day as I struggle with procrastination. May you also be inspired and be fueled with this prayer, knowing that we only have today, and so let us begin.
A Procrastinator’s Prayer (by St. Josemaria Escriva)
Come, O Holy Spirit!
Enlighten my mind to know your commands;
strengthen my heart against the snares of the enemy;
inflame my will…
I have heard your voice, and I don’t want to harden myself and resist,
saying “Later…, tomorrow.”
Nunc coepi! Now I begin!
In case there is no tomorrow for me.
O Spirit of truth and wisdom, Spirit of understanding and counsel,
Spirit of joy and peace!
I want whatever you want. I want because you want,
I want however you want, I want whenever you want.
Chelsea Dolor is a Mission Volunteer of MFC Youth serving in the Luzon Missions Team.